Life's Debacles, What do you do?

I think I’ll journey out some day to wondrous lands afar,
Or even chart a journey to a distant blazing star.
But rest assured that when my journey begs to take its cue,
Always know that when I go, this journey takes you too.

We’ll start our journey out from here by horse and cart of old,
The seaside docks - and journey pauses - where we shall behold
A noble schooner for the journey primed to launch as planned:
To sail with dolphins cross the seas then journey back on land.

And so our journey goes by foot to conquer mountains tall:
A chapter hence the journey reached, with scenes that should enthral.
But when we tire, let's rest our journey, stretched in fields of flowers,
And bathe atop the mountain from the journey - autumn showers!

Refreshed, our journey takes a turn - we'll venture back for home,
But first we'll let the journey take a tangent just to roam.
And in the winding route, this journey's bound to bide content,
But most of all take heed - let's make our journey life's event

Journey to Be - Mark R Slaughter


Okay after a month of hiatus from the blog and also after the rapid enraged outburst of the previous post (apologies to those who were offended), it made me wonder are things in life always taken for granted? Are human beings always searching for the easiest path to them of which they can take? What of some individuals whom stride for taking the road less taken (read the poem) by others?

These kind of questions made me wonder, what is the key factor in each individuals life's journey? Sure it is impossible to link every humans key factor, but at some point in time there should be a certain "bump" on the road right? such as hardships like failure,break ups,laziness, injuries (permanent) and such.Do we really need to lash out our sadness and resentment to other's as well just to make them understand the way we (the one who is suffering) feel? Cry out in agony instead of trying to get back on our own two feet and move forward? There are those that will come to aid those in their time of need...but what if the person you are helping bites the hand that is trying to help? Or choose to turn on deaf's ear and ignore your advise? It is these type of things that got me thinking for a whole night to write this piece (hopefully it does not offend anybody).

What I'm trying to say is when these types of situations come storming in our lives, what do we do? Do we face it head on? Or just bow one's head and accept it? Do we ever let go of our insecurities and resentment? These type of questions I guess must be answered by each individual, for no answer would ever be the same cause everyone is unique in their own way. Even to this day a majority of mankind has used their own resentments and insecurities to harm or hurt others be it as a political agenda or just as a simple way of getting revenge or lashing out at others to feel their pain...but ask yourself this, at the end of the day after you have done so...deep down do you feel satisfied? Will you be satisfied by infecting others with your own resentments and insecurities? If you are satisfied then that is just sad for you.

As for yours truly sure there have been a certifiable amount of regrets in my life's journey, but I try to take it and lick my wounds after and try to let it go cause I think if I don't I will be haunted by it for the rest of my life (example: still afraid of sharks and get's seasick very easily). I know letting go of your past pain is hard but for example look at one of the worlds iconic leaders Nelson Mandela, he go out of prison and was the president of South Africa and his first move was to unite the people regardless if some of them were the ones who put him in prison in the first place (go watch Invictus and see for yourself). This iconic man was able to forgive the people who put him there and has let go of all his resentment and pain and for that by my own personal opinion he is still the best leader the world has ever had.

But like I said, can every human have the same key factor in life and react the same way? highly unlikely but there are some true gems out there and I hope they can be the shining light that will guide the world in the future or just be a simple role model for a society as let's face it...the worlds kinda a grim place at the moment.

At the end of the day, I guess it is up to you and only you and yourself alone that can be the judge of the hand that has been given to you, what will you do with it? Are you willing to let go of your past regrets and hardships and strive on for a better future? You must decide on your own. Cheers fellow readers.

Sheer Poetry

A Long Road Bending - James Freeman

This life is one long lovesong
and I've trouble with the lyrics
Yet you still smile from the piano
when I've forgotten words
then hold me up, never holding on
Allowing me another breath
I'm afraid to look you in the eye
It's easier to glance away
Always hope to find some sense
for me in penning notes
Forever trying to find a name
for the ghosting nameless

Reaching after description, a sense
of times gone, choices made
and lived so long ago
They're foggy now and yet
my heartbeat sometimes quickens
and there's a tight fist
somewhere in the middle
of my self esteem
A swallowing of missed opportunities
Gulping away the fear
So, what is there in looking back
that rings true

Looks right and sounds like
music not too overworked
Manipulated to meet
whatever the current need
Is a hit tune really quite that good
or does the whole thing
depend on rhythm and beat
woofed and tweeted, amplified
Scores written across night skies
in blue black ink
Small wonder it's obscured
lying here, looking up

Maybe I've just not found
the proper key, still humming
and it gets beyond me
stays just out of reach
Play it again Sam, it's got to be
a sort of mirror writing
Clear in the reflection
I'm obviously standing here
looking for the proper shade of green
in a whole damn forest
Sorting through brambled underbrush
for one clear thought

Otherwise I've tricked the truth
and truths have a way
of slithering back when least expected
Jumping up to bite me in the ankle
It's simple enough this mucking about
from day to day
The struggle for a song is mostly
maintenance at several levels
Offering comparative economic choice
on the Mercedes Meter
when any fool should know
that a motorcycle fills the bill

Someone on the back I care about
arms around my waist
The maps all left behind for those
looking for destinations
Running with me in the wind
singing phrasings in my ear
Making time to lay on grassy banks
and let it slide a while
Wandering and wondering along with me
where it all will end and if we'll find
the song we've written
is finally just a long road bending

Patience is a virtue

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.
- John Quincy Adams

Patience is necessary, and one cannot reap immediately where one has sown.
- Soren Kierkegaard

To endure is greater than to dare; to tire out hostile fortune; to be daunted by no difficulty; to keep heart when all have lost it; to go through intrigue spotless; to forego even ambition when the end is gained - who can say this is not greatness?
- William M. Thackeray

Patience is necessary, and one cannot reap immediately where one has sown.
- Soren Kierkegaard


Based on the these quotes as you all may know it's going to be a post about patience...something sadly is seriously lacking in today's youth.One should always try to endure instead of giving up, find solutions on your own or with help instead of complaining about it.As you can see in the global scale there are cases such as riots, uprising and even rebellion; let's not also forgot the major economic crisis we are about to endure for a certain period term until America settle's it's debt matters. Let's face it some of these things are not justifiable (some part is justifiable bout the riots in London,not that I agree with how the youth there reacted).

We do not even have to look offshore to see that even some of the youth's in our own nation is severely lacking in this department. For example's pushing and shoving in KTM, battling for parking, items and even to pay during sales and even some crack on their first step into working field. I had a chat with some friends of mine today (identities are classified)and forgive me for the vulgarity all I heard was them bitching and whining about it, nobody said it was a walk in the park lads.In the working field you must know your rights and where you stand as new employee's don't let them (regular staff) get to you, if your boss yells at you well suck it up! These friends of mine started complaining that their job was boring, always under tight dead lines, getting scolded and such...and I asked them a simple question, Why did you get yelled at? 75% said that they did something wrong; Why did they do something wrong? 80% said cause they didn't check their work thoroughly; Why didn't you check? 100% said the same f^&king thing "BOSAN DAN MALASLAH". Hell if that's the way it is and you complain that it is boring then let's face it the higher post is gonna elude you.

In my opinion one should always endure the external pressure (gossiping,scolding,yelling,same tasks given over and over, plus find some reasons if you can't solve it and when the boss call's you and demands a reason at least you will have one instead of the usual "ENTAH or I DON'T KNOW). My lads,my advice is this no matter how boring the task is just be patient and do it, quit complaining...be appreciative that at least you have a job, there's a very high unemployment rate now so be thankful that you are employed. As for co-workers giving you hard time all I have to say is this "NO PAIN NO GAIN" they are there to mold you into a tough (mentally) employee...take them as a challenge and when you do overcome it you will realize that they made you better.The more you whine or bitch about it the more you tend to give up...DON'T, "ROME WAS NOT BUILT IN A DAY" so endure it and focus on your job and screw your co-workers or bosses if they get a holiday,a dinner, a festival and you are left out; just focus on your god damn job and take pride in your job no matter how repetitive it is.

After a few years you will realize that those repetitive tasks, scoldings or yelling's have help as a solid foundation to your career. I myself admit that during my first day of work I was complaining a lot (ergo the me now would gladly smack the me back then). But as times pass you don't need to pegged yourself to your co-workers, be better than them and take charge if need be. One should always be patient with these things, it's not like you will be considered an equal right of the bat, you will have to earn your stripes for that.One to two years of doing the same repetitive task is worth it if you have mastered it and in the next 5 years after that you will be the one teaching those in your place at the moment no? Anyways to all my lad's here's my advise, quit bitching and complaining about it and be patient while enduring it...the long term period reward is going to be rewarding...this is if you work hard at it though. That's all for now, Laters.

Happy Ramadhan to All

Would like to wish all muslims a very happy ramadhan, may we all enjoy this festive season with our loved ones

Birthday and Off the maket

What up folks? yes today this blogger turns another year older (damn I feel old!). Anyways just to inform you guys that yours truly ain't big on celebrating turning older, getting gifts or partying till the break of dawn (I'll be working the next day!).

This ancient/ old school blogger of yours once upon a time preferred to spend time on his bed pretending it is not his birthday and wishing everyone would just leave him alone (depressing I know, but hey I'm getting older!).

At last this year my birthday is during the fasting month (no meals by day? NOOOooooo - Anakin Skywalker style. But hey I enjoyed my day by spending time with someone I truly love and that's all I want honestly, some quality time with the hopefully soon-to-be (but not that soon) fiance/wife of mine and I'm a happy man. Yeaps this sad bloke has taken himself of the market ladies and gents (has been off the market a year actually, just didn't give a memo), now working on maintaining the relationship I have with my dearest partner. Hopefully (and God Willing) in 3-4 years we should be able to tie the knot (ergo we need stable income and get our license first).

Look, I ain't trying to be all mushy mushy just cause it's my birthday and you all have to listen to to what I say; it's just that the youth generation these days tend to fail in relationships cause they don't want to be fully committed or work out issues with their partners.Relationships are tough but it is also rewarding to have someone standing by your side in my opinion, screw it I'm old school. So I'm gonna take my relationship with her one stride at a time, and face the obstacles in our way no matter what cause I DO REALLY LOVE/ CHERISH HER...and all you skeptics saying this and that can keep your comments to yourself, I'm committed to this girl for life.So for all you lady reader's sorry but I have already found my soul mate (hopefully) I am OFFICIALLY OFF THE MARKET, may you guys and gals find yours too.

Anyways that's it for now folks, thanks for the wishes...truly appreciate it.Later's

How Dee Doo?

What's up folks? been a while since I wrote a post (work and writers block mostly). How's it going for you? Well as for yours truly things are kinda so-so.

Some co-workers at my day job are making pissed or sour faces when I'm doing my other job at the office (Errr I got permission from the Senior Manager? Go ask) . I can literally count the task they have given me to do, basically do follow ups for clients and some menial tasks, oh well can't complain cause my other jobs is a real pain in the ass yet fun for me as I have to do 4 years of financial statements, fixed asset listing, salary schedule for a kindergarten (Yes I may be having a psychotic breakdown since I am saying accounting is fun).

On the side note am missing the lady in my life since it's been almost a month and we have only gone out for one date....guess that comes as a sacrifice we had to make since we are both employed, glad she enjoys her workplace. Hope she has a ball over there and the people there love her, a plus for her as she gets help from her peers there, wish her all the best for her first experience as an accountant (love you sweetheart, don't worry I'll be here if u need me beautiful(to the other readers yes I'm being mushy so shush!)) .

Well can't say for me, since at my day job I'll be doing my night/other job most of the time, only been hanging out with a few of the co-workers (those who don't do a sour face).Fortunately I'm used to that type of situation (was a junior accountant) where everyone puts on a sour face. The plus side is I do tend to hear their leisure talks and let me tell you, there's some weird stuff that they talk about (details explicit).

Anyways that's it for now, your writer has no clue of what the heck to write about anymore for the moment.Laters Folks.

Bearing Dilemma's

Just started work folks, kinda doing two jobs at a time...by day (hopefully don't need too many OT's) working at Selangor State Investment Center (SSIC). By night and weekends I'll be keying accounts for 4 years for a kindergarten. Hopefully I'll survive the strain. Will be working for 2 months.

On the sad note, I and the one I care for will be sacrificing our time together cause we are both employed for the same period. Oh well, hopefully we'll have some of the 1st and 3rd Saturdays or Sundays to spend time together.

My motive is to get some sense of financial security, luv if you are reading this I think my mum wants me to do both cause she's in a small case of financial deficit cause she asked Big for some.

Anyways that's all for now, I'll be working till 31st August, 1st to 3rd September I intend to just sleep 24/7 and be extremely lazy (if I do actually survive doing 2 jobs at once then I deserve it damn it!). The other's will be hoping to spend time with her.Laters (below is what I wanna do after 31st August for a bit).