NOVEL PART 4

He walked towards the crime scene,cursing his luck of getting stuck in this assignment. The principal was blabbering like a mad women who seem to have lost her wits, like a drunkard telling tales of BS to everyone in the pub of his glory. Except this wasn't crap, this was real as night and day and the CCTV's caught it.

"Son of a B*&th" he swore again as he saw the hole rip through the concrete walls by a rocket. "Sir" said a man in the yards attire. "We have not found the whereabouts of the F%^ks who did this" said the policemen with a venom in his tone.He wouldn't blame the lad, this is one of the most pretigious schools in this area, the man must have even went to this school during his teen days. "Calm down officer, I'm sure the leads will turn up soon" said the man sounding reasuuring even though the truth is he didn't give a damn about the situaion, he was there to find out if the target was eliminated.

He stole the attire from the real detective or constable he didn't know nor care what the man's real position was in the office from the alleyway 3 kilometres back, tied the man up and soon emerged as the officer in charge of the crime scene, he was after all nicknamed the chameleon; he can copy any roll of his targets and he grinned with that thought. As he crept into the classroom, there he saw multiple bodies of young student's sprawled in grusome mess, blood,body parts and organs where sprayed all over the walls and floor.

He saluted the other officers and told them to take a break with a convincing attitude, that would give him time to assess the target's status. He made his way to the back of the class and rummaged through the tables and chairs piled with the bodies, until he found his key mark. The table he was looking for had the number "XIII" carved at one of it's legs, and under the table made him swore loudly. It said "Better luck A-holes, "XIII" is till alive"

He speed dialed on his mobile and cut his British accent act. "It's me" he said grimly. "What's the status of target?" asked the receiver on the other end."Missing" he hissed back. "Find him Agent Garrus, and don't report until you have found him" said the receiver in a flat tone and hung up. Garrus was outraged, tired and over the top pissed at how the target could elude their 3 months of planning and managed to escape alive."I'll find you yet boy, mark my words" said the agent as he strode off into the bustling busy streets, trying to find other clues on the whereabouts of his prey.

Novel Part 3

I was back in the old house, it stank like musk and the walls were stained with deep red. The bone chilling screams of agony from someone sends chills down my spine. I here footsteps coming up the stairs and I stood fixed looking at the door, the creature on the other side starts banging on it and senses my presence and is trying to finish me off. Yet I just stood rooted to my ground as the door, fixated and curious to what will enter. Finally the shingles from the door are ripped apart and the creature enters, it's red eyes gazed directly to mine.....

I woke up in a cold sweat and check on my surroundings, a sigh of relief as I was still in the airplane. The pilot's intercom rang as he made an announcement of our landing. I was so close to the place where these a cursed nightmare all began. I gulped down a glass of whiskey,damn it felt good and helps to relieve some of the pain and also dulls my memory and senses from the nightmare. Unfortunately drinking as much as I have, even through illegal measures to get a bottle of swig has not fully made me forget of what happened; no matter how hard I try these crappy nightmares are as I know was once a reality.

I arrived in Changi Airport, again my mood was turning sour, some part of me was beginning to think that my uncle has lost his marble's asking me to come so close to an area I swore that the only way I would set foot on was with the intent for blood. I hailed the taxi and headed to his area somewhere near the bay. “God damnit it man your not helping with the term lay low and out of sight” was my impression as I headed up his driveway and saw his banglow, the man must surely want a quick death wish due to this “beacon” of a house that far outclasses the others in the area. I rang the door bell and was thinking of a thousand ways to curse at the old fart.

But before I could speak a word as the door opened a familiar click brought me back in to reality, there right in front of my eyes was a glock ready to blow my brains out. “your getting slow my boy, you would be dead if I was the enemy” said a man with a gruffy voice. “Uncle, always a pleasure seeing your fat ass again, sadly you would be dead before you could have pulled the trigger if you were one of them” I said and pointed to my beretta already cocked and halfway through the trigger. “Hah! That's what I'm talking about, you haven't changed a bit lad; still got the edge” he chuckled and ushered me in. Good old Uncle Greaner, once a former British officer in the army now living his dream away from the frontlines and bloodshed; but alas wolves will always thirst for blood and the sheer trill of hunting.,,once you start you will never be able to stop.

We exchanged details on what has been happening in our crappy lives for the past 5 years, felt like a few hours ago we were back in the dessert doing one operation together. A few swigs of fine whisky and then we started getting into serious conversations. “So, is it them again this time?” he said with a stern look on his face. “No Sh**t , was there ever a doubt?” I told him as I passed a picture I took from my time back in England. He swore as he saw the insignia, truth be told even after centuries, they are still a thorn and pain in the ass for the family to deal with. He gaze was a fixed at the family crest, the center piece of his library. “First thing first we need to get you somewhere safe” he said flatly. “Where do you have have in mind?” I asked with a bit of curiosity. A long silence passed by and the first words totally stunned me to kingdom come.

“Malaysia” he said with confidence. “You fu**king kidding me?It's only parted by that damn area by a sea” I argued. “True, but the closer you are to your enemy then the lesser you are from their grips” He turned and grinned at me.Even after all this years of retirement he's still a crazy fu**ked up general that I know of, He may be crazy but his tactics and strategy has never failed. I raised my glass for a toast “To Hell I go then” and gulped down the last remnants of whiskey. “ But if they come for me there, I won't be nice....there will be blood spilled” I stated with a stern look of my own. “My thoughts exactly” my uncle replied as we both grinned and had another bottle of fine Jack Daniel's.

Novel Part 2

CHAPTER 1

After walking a few blocks away from school, I ditched my wig that I have been wearing every time to school and found a phone booth nearby. I went in and made sure nobody was following or waiting for me outside. I picked the receiver and dialed a number, a few minutes went by before a voice picked up. “Hello?” said an old raspy voice, must be due to different time zones, it's probably around 4 am where he is. “Uncle Ben? It's me, Aunt Petunia has blown off steam again;need a place to stay” I said in a coded message. “S**t, you alright boy?” inquired Uncle Ben (not his real name). “Need a place to stay, other than that I'm just peachy” I said. After a few seconds of a silence pause he finally said “come over then”. “I'll be there soon” I hung up before he could even reply and hailed the nearest taxi and headed for the airport, in a sense feeling relieved that I no longer have to put up with the people at school any longer.

Upon reaching the airport, I bought a plane ticket, cursed at the thought of the long flight there and went to the magazine store to look for some reading material. “Dumbledore is gonna beat Voldemort!” I heard a kid saying to his friend. “Na'ah I think Sirius will!” his friend argued. I picked a novel and was paying for it and a pack of reds when their personal debate started intensifying, in short started to get on my nerves. “Your both wrong, both of them die...read the books and you'll know” I said. The twinkle in their eyes faded as they heard my answer, like a small toddler finding out that Santa Clause did not exist. Their argument faded and they started to sob. I grinned and walk pass them and headed for the departure hall. I thought to myself well I'm a Tolkien fan anyway, Lord of the Rings beats a teen wizard with family issues any day. I headed towards the gents and went into a cubicle and put on a fake beard and contact lens that changed my eye color, made sure that they were on perfectly and headed for the ticket counter again with another passport at hand.

While waiting for my flight, I lighted one of my cigarettes and watch the TV (or telly if your from this parts). The news was on, my high school was highlighted in an evening special, the tag line was that this was done by a group of hoodlums whom had a personal vendetta with the school. I chuckled at the cover up story that they were running when suddenly the a flight attendant came towards me and told me that my flight was calling for final boarding. I headed for the gate and showed my boarding pass and headed in. I caught sight of two men in suits heading towards another gate, they were inquiring about a person and said that this person was a wanted person and showed the flight attendant. That's when I heard the flight attendant's announcement “Attention to all passengers of ***** Airways heading to Amsterdam our flight is delayed due to certain mechanical failure, we are sorry for the inconvenience and will be departing shortly after we have things under control”. After the announcement the two men headed into the boarding tunnel and into the plane.

“Sir? Is there something wrong?” asked the flight attendant at my gate. “Nothing,just thought I saw someone familiar” I said and headed in. I found my seat and looked through the window, I saw the two men in suits in the tunnel chute near the other plane, they looked confused and distraught. “Newbies” I chuckled to myself. I got comfortable in my seat and heard the pilot's announcement “Attention to all passengers of ***** Airlines we are about to depart for Hong Kong, please fasten your seat belt and remain at your seat.....” and he went on while the flight attendant showed the passengers on the safety precautions. Meanwhile, I was looking at my flight ticket, and knew that I had another transit flight to take to Singapore. “F**k, it's going to be a hell of a long journey, Asia here I come” I muttered to myself and began reading my novel. While on the runway I took a glance through the window again, I saw the two men in suits at the tarmac, looking lost and confused, I grinned and closed the window and continued reading my novel.

Short Novel

Greetings readers, this is just a phase I'm going through and thus I have decided to write a short novel and updating it every week (if possible). Just a key reminder though that this novel is FICTIONAL and all the characters are made up. Hope you enjoy it.

TWISTED MIND : PROLOGUE

You know back in the good old days back when you were a kid? Happy life, cool friends, nagging parent's and also free of hassle? Basically the good life at the beginning of it all. Well what do you do if in reality your life is way far than those factors and in seems like those kind of things are a fairy tale life to you?

Let's put it in my shoes, migrant person (me no understand your language), across the world from your kind of people and to top it all off a miserable person at home and you are actually running away from your loved ones, and for a good reason too.....

“ Dude, seriously what the hell man; quit your fantasy and come back to reality” a familiar voice said to me, I turn around and it's my bud Jeffrey Tanning looking at me with an irritated face which I am all to dull to care for anymore. “Hey Jeff, dull day morning huh?” I said to him while already knowing the repercussion of saying it. “Morning? Dude seriously it's noon you twit, get you-” before he could finish the sentence a prefect (which also considered by most freshman to be an honorable post, but for me a senior and a former one who used to bare the same post ; I can tell you this, we do a heck of a lot more dishonorable things than normal student's).

“Strife?” said the prefect with a sneer on her face, ahhhh good old Christine Paulman; respected deputy head prefect also the Head prefects lover...and also still pissed that I punched him 2 years ago back when I was still in the force for some dispute. “Yeah? What's the deal C?” I replied without even looking at her annoying face. “The headmistress is calling for you” she said with a bit of venom to her voice, she's definitely still pissed I broke her lovers nose and left it at a permanent state of crookedness. Without even replying I picked my back pack and headed out the class, really felt like a convict from death row heading to his sentence by the stares and looks from my classmates; being escorted by a prefect who literally hates me does not help with the situation either.

I reached the supposedly execution chamber or in another term it's called the headmistress or principal's office, depends which region you are from. I give a curt nod to her secretary who ushers me in with the body language that tells me that she hates my American guts. “Mr Dalamante, do come in” said the principal without moving her eye contact from her computer screen, probably fiddling around with e-bay finding a new item to buy at the expense of her husband's credit card. “Mrs Oliver” I acknowledged her as I made myself comfortable in the chair in front of her desk. “Mr Dalamante, it seems you have been up to no good again now are you?” she said with a stern face. “What did I do this time?” I asked while thinking of all the stuff I pull off this week alone and which one got me busted, Smoking in school? Cutting classes? Puncturing the new teacher's Prius tires? . “It seems to me that you have vandalized our school's south wall with your personal touch?” she said while fiddling my student file, I nearly grinned looking at the size of it since I was here only 3 years back; nearly wanted to boast on how thick it was compared to then. “What do you mean ma'am?” I said with an American slang. “Don't toy with me young man, I know you did it cause you wrote your name on it!” she yelled and slammed a photo in front of me.

I was far to familiar with what was the fuss,the south wall of the school had a spray painted insignia, a drake writhing in a lake of fire with two swords as it's front fangs and under the insignia was a Spanish caption and my name. I looked at it for some time, and finally looked at her. “How much would it cost to pay to fix the whole school?”. “ I beg your pardon?” she said stunned. I took out a cheque book and scribbled down an estimated amount for the repairs and passed the cheque to her and got up from my chair. “Sit down boy, we are not finished!” she screamed and then a loud bang kicked in. The entire room shook and screaming of students and staff we heard everywhere. “What in hell's name is that?” she screamed, this time out of fear, which I found amusing for a 53 year old lady who always said in assemblies that she has conquered her fears and succeeded in her life; well apparently this situation was not in her resume .

I peeked through the blinds of her office window, I saw a whole bunch of guys, in supposedly a royal army uniforms, they were storming the south wall which was now a pile of rubble. I knew the faction of this squad of guys with their red and blue attire and it made my mouth taste like bile. “Well ma'am it seems I am dropping out early” I said while packing my back pack up and taking out a small mineral bottle filled with gasoline. “Wha-what?” she said with a surprised face. “These people know me and I am afraid that if I don't go somebody might get dragged into our personal vendetta” I said as I opened her window after all member's of the squad were already over the south wall and beyond view. “you know these hoodlums?” she asked with a rattled voice.

“Yeah, me and these bunch of people go way back, they must be looking for me” I said as I pulled out my lighter and toss gasoline over my file and torched it. “What are you doing? Who in god's name are they!?” she demanded, she was confused and fearful for she no longer had an understanding on the situation at hand. I clambered halfway out of her office window and replied with an evil grin “Their my relatives looking for my head” and then I jumped down into the bushes and headed out of the destroyed south wall and sprinted down the alley, away from getting caught by the traitorous bastards that are hunting for me.

1st Annversary

Just celebrated our 1st anniversary a few days back, had a blast with her (details are explicit only for us to know). Hope for more things to come and that our relationship will last till the day we walk down the aisle.Love you so much dear and will forever stand by your side :)

Decisions in Uncertainty

“A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion”
- Chinese proverb

Decisions have to be made every single day in our lives, but not all are positive in nature. As the proverb shows, mankind is also prone to decision making by the influence of the public (family,friends etc). One has to understand, that at the end of the day your choice is yours and the repercussion (if any) is yours alone to bear...like the Spanish saying goes mano-a-mano. Sometimes it is better for you to make your own decisions and learned from the mistakes (if any) that you have made,thus making you wiser and more witty in our decisions, instead on relying on others for guidance. Sure there will be conflict between family members or friends if you do not follow their advise but sometimes the decisions they made are safe ones.Life is always full of uncertainty, if all your decisions are certain in nature, then when will you learn?

here's a quote that we (me and my bro's) live by :
You must follow your own path and think for yourself, dare to take risks and fail, don't rely on us too much (parent's) for we may be against your decision.Sure there will be confrontation, but at least you are thinking for yourself and you are on your own two feet. We are not going to be here forever so you must come to those terms and try to live with your own conscience and although there will be conflict with us, know this...you are in charge of your life, not us...grow your own wings and follow your own path

- My parent's

Thus, even though sure the public (family,friends etc) will not tend to agree with everything you have decided; at the end of the day you and only yourself have to walk down the road....be brave and take heed that it is your own path, not others..thus you will have to walk it alone in the end, but do walk with stride....for if you make decisions on your own then you will feel more satisfied. If your decisions are incorrect, at least you will learn from your mistakes and you will make wiser decisions in the future.Cheers

Decisions in Uncertainty

“A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion”
- Chinese proverb

Decisions have to be made every single day in our lives, but not all are positive in nature. As the proverb shows, mankind is also prone to decision making by the influence of the public (family,friends etc). One has to understand, that at the end of the day your choice is yours and the repercussion (if any) is yours alone to bear...like the Spanish saying goes mano-a-mano. Sometimes it is better for you to make your own decisions and learned from the mistakes (if any) that you have made,thus making you wiser and more witty in our decisions, instead on relying on others for guidance. Sure there will be conflict between family members or friends if you do not follow their advise but sometimes the decisions they made are safe ones.Life is always full of uncertainty, if all your decisions are certain in nature, then when will you learn?

here's a quote that we (me and my bro's) live by :
You must follow your own path and think for yourself, dare to take risks and fail, don't rely on us too much (parent's) for we may be against your decision.Sure there will be confrontation, but at least you are thinking for yourself and you are on your own two feet. We are not going to be here forever so you must come to those terms and try to live with your own conscience and although there will be conflict with us, know this...you are in charge of your life, not us...grow your own wings and follow your own path

- My parent's

Thus, even though sure the public (family,friends etc) will not tend to agree with everything you have decided; at the end of the day you and only yourself have to walk down the road....be brave and take heed that it is your own path, not others..thus you will have to walk it alone in the end, but do walk with stride....for if you make decisions on your own then you will feel more satisfied. If your decisions are incorrect, at least you will learn from your mistakes and you will make wiser decisions in the future.Cheers

Life's Debacles, What do you do?

I think I’ll journey out some day to wondrous lands afar,
Or even chart a journey to a distant blazing star.
But rest assured that when my journey begs to take its cue,
Always know that when I go, this journey takes you too.

We’ll start our journey out from here by horse and cart of old,
The seaside docks - and journey pauses - where we shall behold
A noble schooner for the journey primed to launch as planned:
To sail with dolphins cross the seas then journey back on land.

And so our journey goes by foot to conquer mountains tall:
A chapter hence the journey reached, with scenes that should enthral.
But when we tire, let's rest our journey, stretched in fields of flowers,
And bathe atop the mountain from the journey - autumn showers!

Refreshed, our journey takes a turn - we'll venture back for home,
But first we'll let the journey take a tangent just to roam.
And in the winding route, this journey's bound to bide content,
But most of all take heed - let's make our journey life's event

Journey to Be - Mark R Slaughter


Okay after a month of hiatus from the blog and also after the rapid enraged outburst of the previous post (apologies to those who were offended), it made me wonder are things in life always taken for granted? Are human beings always searching for the easiest path to them of which they can take? What of some individuals whom stride for taking the road less taken (read the poem) by others?

These kind of questions made me wonder, what is the key factor in each individuals life's journey? Sure it is impossible to link every humans key factor, but at some point in time there should be a certain "bump" on the road right? such as hardships like failure,break ups,laziness, injuries (permanent) and such.Do we really need to lash out our sadness and resentment to other's as well just to make them understand the way we (the one who is suffering) feel? Cry out in agony instead of trying to get back on our own two feet and move forward? There are those that will come to aid those in their time of need...but what if the person you are helping bites the hand that is trying to help? Or choose to turn on deaf's ear and ignore your advise? It is these type of things that got me thinking for a whole night to write this piece (hopefully it does not offend anybody).

What I'm trying to say is when these types of situations come storming in our lives, what do we do? Do we face it head on? Or just bow one's head and accept it? Do we ever let go of our insecurities and resentment? These type of questions I guess must be answered by each individual, for no answer would ever be the same cause everyone is unique in their own way. Even to this day a majority of mankind has used their own resentments and insecurities to harm or hurt others be it as a political agenda or just as a simple way of getting revenge or lashing out at others to feel their pain...but ask yourself this, at the end of the day after you have done so...deep down do you feel satisfied? Will you be satisfied by infecting others with your own resentments and insecurities? If you are satisfied then that is just sad for you.

As for yours truly sure there have been a certifiable amount of regrets in my life's journey, but I try to take it and lick my wounds after and try to let it go cause I think if I don't I will be haunted by it for the rest of my life (example: still afraid of sharks and get's seasick very easily). I know letting go of your past pain is hard but for example look at one of the worlds iconic leaders Nelson Mandela, he go out of prison and was the president of South Africa and his first move was to unite the people regardless if some of them were the ones who put him in prison in the first place (go watch Invictus and see for yourself). This iconic man was able to forgive the people who put him there and has let go of all his resentment and pain and for that by my own personal opinion he is still the best leader the world has ever had.

But like I said, can every human have the same key factor in life and react the same way? highly unlikely but there are some true gems out there and I hope they can be the shining light that will guide the world in the future or just be a simple role model for a society as let's face it...the worlds kinda a grim place at the moment.

At the end of the day, I guess it is up to you and only you and yourself alone that can be the judge of the hand that has been given to you, what will you do with it? Are you willing to let go of your past regrets and hardships and strive on for a better future? You must decide on your own. Cheers fellow readers.

Sheer Poetry

A Long Road Bending - James Freeman

This life is one long lovesong
and I've trouble with the lyrics
Yet you still smile from the piano
when I've forgotten words
then hold me up, never holding on
Allowing me another breath
I'm afraid to look you in the eye
It's easier to glance away
Always hope to find some sense
for me in penning notes
Forever trying to find a name
for the ghosting nameless

Reaching after description, a sense
of times gone, choices made
and lived so long ago
They're foggy now and yet
my heartbeat sometimes quickens
and there's a tight fist
somewhere in the middle
of my self esteem
A swallowing of missed opportunities
Gulping away the fear
So, what is there in looking back
that rings true

Looks right and sounds like
music not too overworked
Manipulated to meet
whatever the current need
Is a hit tune really quite that good
or does the whole thing
depend on rhythm and beat
woofed and tweeted, amplified
Scores written across night skies
in blue black ink
Small wonder it's obscured
lying here, looking up

Maybe I've just not found
the proper key, still humming
and it gets beyond me
stays just out of reach
Play it again Sam, it's got to be
a sort of mirror writing
Clear in the reflection
I'm obviously standing here
looking for the proper shade of green
in a whole damn forest
Sorting through brambled underbrush
for one clear thought

Otherwise I've tricked the truth
and truths have a way
of slithering back when least expected
Jumping up to bite me in the ankle
It's simple enough this mucking about
from day to day
The struggle for a song is mostly
maintenance at several levels
Offering comparative economic choice
on the Mercedes Meter
when any fool should know
that a motorcycle fills the bill

Someone on the back I care about
arms around my waist
The maps all left behind for those
looking for destinations
Running with me in the wind
singing phrasings in my ear
Making time to lay on grassy banks
and let it slide a while
Wandering and wondering along with me
where it all will end and if we'll find
the song we've written
is finally just a long road bending

Patience is a virtue

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.
- John Quincy Adams

Patience is necessary, and one cannot reap immediately where one has sown.
- Soren Kierkegaard

To endure is greater than to dare; to tire out hostile fortune; to be daunted by no difficulty; to keep heart when all have lost it; to go through intrigue spotless; to forego even ambition when the end is gained - who can say this is not greatness?
- William M. Thackeray

Patience is necessary, and one cannot reap immediately where one has sown.
- Soren Kierkegaard


Based on the these quotes as you all may know it's going to be a post about patience...something sadly is seriously lacking in today's youth.One should always try to endure instead of giving up, find solutions on your own or with help instead of complaining about it.As you can see in the global scale there are cases such as riots, uprising and even rebellion; let's not also forgot the major economic crisis we are about to endure for a certain period term until America settle's it's debt matters. Let's face it some of these things are not justifiable (some part is justifiable bout the riots in London,not that I agree with how the youth there reacted).

We do not even have to look offshore to see that even some of the youth's in our own nation is severely lacking in this department. For example's pushing and shoving in KTM, battling for parking, items and even to pay during sales and even some crack on their first step into working field. I had a chat with some friends of mine today (identities are classified)and forgive me for the vulgarity all I heard was them bitching and whining about it, nobody said it was a walk in the park lads.In the working field you must know your rights and where you stand as new employee's don't let them (regular staff) get to you, if your boss yells at you well suck it up! These friends of mine started complaining that their job was boring, always under tight dead lines, getting scolded and such...and I asked them a simple question, Why did you get yelled at? 75% said that they did something wrong; Why did they do something wrong? 80% said cause they didn't check their work thoroughly; Why didn't you check? 100% said the same f^&king thing "BOSAN DAN MALASLAH". Hell if that's the way it is and you complain that it is boring then let's face it the higher post is gonna elude you.

In my opinion one should always endure the external pressure (gossiping,scolding,yelling,same tasks given over and over, plus find some reasons if you can't solve it and when the boss call's you and demands a reason at least you will have one instead of the usual "ENTAH or I DON'T KNOW). My lads,my advice is this no matter how boring the task is just be patient and do it, quit complaining...be appreciative that at least you have a job, there's a very high unemployment rate now so be thankful that you are employed. As for co-workers giving you hard time all I have to say is this "NO PAIN NO GAIN" they are there to mold you into a tough (mentally) employee...take them as a challenge and when you do overcome it you will realize that they made you better.The more you whine or bitch about it the more you tend to give up...DON'T, "ROME WAS NOT BUILT IN A DAY" so endure it and focus on your job and screw your co-workers or bosses if they get a holiday,a dinner, a festival and you are left out; just focus on your god damn job and take pride in your job no matter how repetitive it is.

After a few years you will realize that those repetitive tasks, scoldings or yelling's have help as a solid foundation to your career. I myself admit that during my first day of work I was complaining a lot (ergo the me now would gladly smack the me back then). But as times pass you don't need to pegged yourself to your co-workers, be better than them and take charge if need be. One should always be patient with these things, it's not like you will be considered an equal right of the bat, you will have to earn your stripes for that.One to two years of doing the same repetitive task is worth it if you have mastered it and in the next 5 years after that you will be the one teaching those in your place at the moment no? Anyways to all my lad's here's my advise, quit bitching and complaining about it and be patient while enduring it...the long term period reward is going to be rewarding...this is if you work hard at it though. That's all for now, Laters.

Happy Ramadhan to All

Would like to wish all muslims a very happy ramadhan, may we all enjoy this festive season with our loved ones

Birthday and Off the maket

What up folks? yes today this blogger turns another year older (damn I feel old!). Anyways just to inform you guys that yours truly ain't big on celebrating turning older, getting gifts or partying till the break of dawn (I'll be working the next day!).

This ancient/ old school blogger of yours once upon a time preferred to spend time on his bed pretending it is not his birthday and wishing everyone would just leave him alone (depressing I know, but hey I'm getting older!).

At last this year my birthday is during the fasting month (no meals by day? NOOOooooo - Anakin Skywalker style. But hey I enjoyed my day by spending time with someone I truly love and that's all I want honestly, some quality time with the hopefully soon-to-be (but not that soon) fiance/wife of mine and I'm a happy man. Yeaps this sad bloke has taken himself of the market ladies and gents (has been off the market a year actually, just didn't give a memo), now working on maintaining the relationship I have with my dearest partner. Hopefully (and God Willing) in 3-4 years we should be able to tie the knot (ergo we need stable income and get our license first).

Look, I ain't trying to be all mushy mushy just cause it's my birthday and you all have to listen to to what I say; it's just that the youth generation these days tend to fail in relationships cause they don't want to be fully committed or work out issues with their partners.Relationships are tough but it is also rewarding to have someone standing by your side in my opinion, screw it I'm old school. So I'm gonna take my relationship with her one stride at a time, and face the obstacles in our way no matter what cause I DO REALLY LOVE/ CHERISH HER...and all you skeptics saying this and that can keep your comments to yourself, I'm committed to this girl for life.So for all you lady reader's sorry but I have already found my soul mate (hopefully) I am OFFICIALLY OFF THE MARKET, may you guys and gals find yours too.

Anyways that's it for now folks, thanks for the wishes...truly appreciate it.Later's

How Dee Doo?

What's up folks? been a while since I wrote a post (work and writers block mostly). How's it going for you? Well as for yours truly things are kinda so-so.

Some co-workers at my day job are making pissed or sour faces when I'm doing my other job at the office (Errr I got permission from the Senior Manager? Go ask) . I can literally count the task they have given me to do, basically do follow ups for clients and some menial tasks, oh well can't complain cause my other jobs is a real pain in the ass yet fun for me as I have to do 4 years of financial statements, fixed asset listing, salary schedule for a kindergarten (Yes I may be having a psychotic breakdown since I am saying accounting is fun).

On the side note am missing the lady in my life since it's been almost a month and we have only gone out for one date....guess that comes as a sacrifice we had to make since we are both employed, glad she enjoys her workplace. Hope she has a ball over there and the people there love her, a plus for her as she gets help from her peers there, wish her all the best for her first experience as an accountant (love you sweetheart, don't worry I'll be here if u need me beautiful(to the other readers yes I'm being mushy so shush!)) .

Well can't say for me, since at my day job I'll be doing my night/other job most of the time, only been hanging out with a few of the co-workers (those who don't do a sour face).Fortunately I'm used to that type of situation (was a junior accountant) where everyone puts on a sour face. The plus side is I do tend to hear their leisure talks and let me tell you, there's some weird stuff that they talk about (details explicit).

Anyways that's it for now, your writer has no clue of what the heck to write about anymore for the moment.Laters Folks.

Bearing Dilemma's

Just started work folks, kinda doing two jobs at a time...by day (hopefully don't need too many OT's) working at Selangor State Investment Center (SSIC). By night and weekends I'll be keying accounts for 4 years for a kindergarten. Hopefully I'll survive the strain. Will be working for 2 months.

On the sad note, I and the one I care for will be sacrificing our time together cause we are both employed for the same period. Oh well, hopefully we'll have some of the 1st and 3rd Saturdays or Sundays to spend time together.

My motive is to get some sense of financial security, luv if you are reading this I think my mum wants me to do both cause she's in a small case of financial deficit cause she asked Big for some.

Anyways that's all for now, I'll be working till 31st August, 1st to 3rd September I intend to just sleep 24/7 and be extremely lazy (if I do actually survive doing 2 jobs at once then I deserve it damn it!). The other's will be hoping to spend time with her.Laters (below is what I wanna do after 31st August for a bit).

The Blues

I'm talking about music folks,I don't know why but at the moment I am yearning to just chill back and relax and listen to blues music. Something about this genre just makes you want to forget everything else and just enjoy the song. In my own experience the blues have always been my source of relaxation music and top it off with a good cup of joe than nothing else matters for a good few hours.Anyways this is just a short post of letting you know what I am doing the moment.Cheers and relax!

Imperfections (materialistic perpective) in one's self

Perfection itself is imperfection.

Vladimir Horowitz

The fact of storytelling hints at a fundamental human unease, hints at human imperfection. Where there is perfection there is no story to tell.

Ben Okri


First of all this is an opinion on the young these days who tend to give up their struggle with imperfections and try copying other people to fill in that gap of imperfectness.Time and time again I see the young trying to be an iconic celebrity (not as in look up to but as in really copying their worshiped icon 100%). Some individuals also then to be overly fashion whores (yes and I am not bleeping the word) and will feel depressed or get overly dramatic if they do not get the latest trend in fashion or cosmetics. These type of people get on my nerves cause they attract lots of sales promoter trying to sell me in-trend stuff saying the cliche line of "It's the in thing, everybody MUST have one" and push the stuff further into my view or they block my path. Usually I'd say politely no thank you if I'm in a good mood, if not you will get the regular "Go F&*K yourself and have a nice day" (yes I have done it multiple times folks).This has been going on since I was a kid that I'm guessing till I kick the bucket I'll be hating certain fashion-wear, cosmetics and beauty products and perfumes (If I do end up in Hell I'll be sure to bring some stuff in those categories to burn with me as well).

Secondly, there's also the issue of people wanting a dream body shape or weight, which is fine BUT not when you do it the wrong way.Plastic surgery for self indulgence is to me just wrong, why the hell would you do something like that just to make your "assets bigger" or your tummy trimmer where you know it is gonna hurt like hell and there can be complications. Although I must say it will be funny to see a post mortem report report saying a lady/gent died from enlarging their assets or getting their tummy tucked.....nevertheless in seriousness, I don't think they would feel the sense of gratification of getting their ideal body weight by plastic surgery in comparison to working out for it.

Thirdly, if we mimick another individuals personality and literally copy their traits cause people like it and plug our own up inside, would you not lose a sense of who you are? If you erase the imperfect part of your personality out by copying a positive trait instead of working to overcome your own negative one then is it not like you are white washing a layer of someone's personality over your own? I don't get why sometimes people tend to get upset over the smallest incident's but then again I don't tell them to erase that trait from their life. Your own personality is like key-points for your own identity, work to overcome your flaws but never stamp another person's personality over your negative ones.Let's face it if you are perfect then what is the point of getting satisfaction,gratification, motivation or even a sense of achievement in your daily life if you are not being yourself?

Finally, I would like to leave you guys with a few more questions, Is it worth it to spend all that cash when you know that in the future you will need it urgently?
Will you regret trying to be perfect by doing all of the above instead of working on dealing with your own imperfections? Do you think that you would still know who you really are if you erase your imperfections? That's something to ponder on about, later's.

Trust

What is the definition of trust? How do we perceive it? a simple way of putting it is:
" In a social context, trust has several connotations.The typical definition of trust follows the general intuition about trust and contains such elements as:
the willingness of one party (trustor) to be vulnerable to the actions of another party (trustee);
reasonable expectation (confidence) of the trustor that the trustee will behave in a way beneficial to the trustor;
risk of harm to the trustor if the trustee will not behave accordingly; and
the absence of trustor's enforcement or control over actions performed by the trustee."
- wikipedia

These days some people tend to just follow what the majority think and not what is in their hearts. Let's face it based on our history as humans the trust we put on some people can tend to be harmful even deadly by some accounts (historical war strategies,football tactics,financial advise, etc).I believe it is okay to have some form of doubt when making a decision based on the trusts of others since sometimes those decisions can be the wrong one.

Which one would you prefer? being wrong by your own decisions or by influence of others and learning from it? or hating yourself and wishing you would have stood your ground instead of following others and being resentful of it? In my opinion, I think people start playing the "blaming game" instead of the first option above. Human beings sometimes tend to start blaming others instead of one's self first.Plus we tend to start our quarrels with the party at fault before trying to fix the predicament we are in (unless it is the other parties fault and you have no remedy for your predicament then by all means get your boxing gloves on!)

Let's face it, some human beings are manipulative and tend to use those who trust them just to get what they want and then ditch their fellow trustees. One should always cherish the trusting bonds we have on each other, I mean doesn't religious teachings actually teach us to come clean and be completely honest with our intentions and actions? (good ones).Pretty sure that the world will be in a better state diplomatic wise if it were to happen.

All I can say is that it is actually okay to have doubts, for within those doubts are some ideas you can use to find ways to solve your problems if those you trust goes and screws you over.Be broad minded and open yourself to others and be honest with each other,that should achieve at least some minimal level of harmony in the community.Loyalty should not be misused for evil deeds, if possible maybe change your ways before someone else does it to you and let you taste your own poison.Anyways I'm sorry if this post is sensitive to any readers, this is just my opinion and not me preaching saying to follow;just expressing my thoughts that's all. Anyways till next time, laters folks.

Birthday Countdown till D-Day

Ola Senor and Senoritas, as referred to the title of this blog it's mainly about the log off my quest to get the future misses her gift.... ps: if you are bored you can just skip and cancel this web page from your tabs:


MAY 15th : Went to a few malls in Subang, found a few nice ones that would suit her well

MAY 16th : Headed to Damansara (Tropicana City Mall) with the misses to watch a few movies at a cinema which usually guarantees that I can get a seat,found nothing nice for her sadly, got a call from my mum inviting the misses along for a family gathering her response....Noooooo! :-( *Scared/Nervous/Stunned Face).

MAY 17th: She was a nervous wreck when we first arrived but she soon got comfortable with it...had a blast with my family especially dinner cause she had back up and support from my mum (son was left in the wind for a moment).

MAY 20th : Spent some quality time with the misses, was one of the best moments in my life ;-)

MAY 21st : Misses had her driving class and pre-exam (examiner was being an ass) but she passed, good for her! :-)

MAY 22nd : Was going to look for the misses birthday present during the morning,shocker was my mum tagged along! (oh well since all her sons and her husband really hates birthdays and prefer not to celebrate it if possible maybe she's hoping that me misses can have something in common with her...well she does since she too celebrates her birthday). My mum would be glad to know this :-D

But it was hell for me, went through multiple,multiple,MULTIPLE selections of gifts of different varieties and finally settled on one (I responded that it looked cheap but ohhh boy was I stunned s%^tless when the cashier ringed it up!).Hopefully she'll like her present and will cherish it (The content of the present could not be revealed at this time due to the misses reading my blog...sorry wifey!).


Anyways that's it folks (yes I know this is lame so sue me, I have writer's block).

Ice Breaking and a Prediction of Revenge?

This actually happened and I am still amazed it did, on Monday night my mum actually requested for my princess to come along for our family gathering on Wesak Day. You would not have believed how scared and nervous she was as all of my bro's will be attending (credit that one came late).Reluctantly she agreed to follow along but was scared all the way through (exception to my 4th bro who she was comfortable with).

Things turned out okay, I'm guessing she enjoyed herself and my family really really made sure that she was well fed. She also managed to see my sister-in-law and me nephews (naughty bunch if I may say so). Well I'm guessing it was an ice breaking experience of knowing what my family is like for her (chaotic,sarcastic,hungry and who knows what else may she think about them..will ask :-P).

Hopefully the experience has made her less jittery when coming over and having meals with my family, the good part is one of my bro's already considers himself her brother-in-law (good for her! X-D).As for the food that was served, there were plenty and I know there were multiple tears of joy from her as we stayed until dinner and had her favorite's which is seafood (both my mum and her are the same in that department).

Anyways that's all for now, here's a metaphoric pic of what she'll probably do to me for revenge on my lazy days :-P

Calm Waters (Yeah Right), World Wide Situation,Happy Wedding

In metaphoric terms I guess you can call it a period of time when you are at peace with yourselves and your surroundings, after going through some tough calls and slight misguided or careless actions and not to mention finals (even though it's been nearly a month) in my opinion I guess I kinda (45% probability) earned the right to feel at peace with myself.

But hey who am I kidding, life ain't suppose to be perfect..it will never will be, those waiting for it are probably in denial or being very optimistic of their opinions. Let's puts things into perspective, there are still many disasters,wars,disputes (be it political or just plain brandish or drunkard behavior). Those are a few examples of imperfection in the world, I mean sure your life could be some what perfect but what about others? It's a domino effect and each situation will effect each individual one way or another across the globe thanks to mass media (talking about important news not some dilemma of who's who in a video).




There are still several things going on in the world and yet I guess some people tend to look the other way in denial that is happening and choose to ignore it and focus on themselves until it comes and bites them back in their ass. Heck I ain't preaching and I ain't a role model either but I do think that some individuals may be thinking thing's for granted and it kinda saddens me that some of my generation and younger tend to look the other way. Like Kate Reed in fairly legal I guess sure it's a pain and may cause dissatisfaction, but isn't it better to find a win-win solution for all?

Anyways I would like to congratulate the new Duke and Duchess of Cambridge for tying the knot, was a spectacular wedding and hopefully you both live a happy life :-).
Also in the spirit of happiness in this paragraph I am somewhat overjoyed to be spending time with someone I truly love more often...as to tying the knot well I guess it's somewhat still in progress but I hope it will lead to that in the end :-D



Well I seriously have penned out of things to write at the moment (yeah I know even this post makes no sense and irrelevant don't have to tell me about it) later's folks.

Transitory

In a nutshell it means lasting a very short time, as we all know many things have a short term shelf life span, your schooling years,bachelor years,goofing of years and the list goes on and on...but I'm just going to refer to schooling life at the moment. Though the time will come to pass, your memories of the hardship,joy, and sadness are all what shapes what you are or what you are going to be, take the challenges straight on with your heads held high and keep your chin up.

Be bold to overcome whatever hellish or annoying task that is set on your path and you shall see that you will grow in terms of mental strength and more emotionally determined. In the end of the day these moments are probably the best god damn moments you are gonna get (mine was during form 4 and 5, had an uber time! and of course now for some reasons that I'm going to leave you guessing).

Anyways as the clock is ticking away I am in the phase of reminiscent, and thinking of all the memories I've collected during my educational learning years..as in a few more years it will soon be over....this is the time to enjoy yourself folks, try new things while you can, for after this you may not have the opportunity or time for it.

Laters

Crazy 11th Hour and Sweet Time

Well as to the first part of the title, it's a hectic/mayhem/chaotic 11th hour as all tons of reports and presentations (major ones) are just around the corner, hopefully me and someone I truly care for plus to all my friends in the same predicament can cope with this stormy ride.

I would also like to wish my heartfelt condolences to the victims of the Japan Earthquake and Tsunami, may you all get proper and speedy aid from other nations.

I am also enjoying spending sweet time with my buds and my princess whenever I have the time since I'm up to my neck in assignments and deadlines...hopefully we will get to spend more time together. To the one I care for most, I'm still looking for that "item" :)

To Late to Reflect?

For some reason I'm getting a case of self reflecting, guess it's adequate based on that the semester is nearing it's end and midterms are few steps away.There are some stuff that I have done that I am not proud of and sure if the opportunity occurs to turn back time (highly unlikely) I guess I would take it, but then would that be wise?

The only way for a person to push forward is to learn from their past mistakes and try to work things out for the future.I do concur that experiencing a new field that is not in my expertise does tend to hurt those who can't stand or get annoyed at my faults, atlas all I can do is learn it as soon as possible and bare the fact that I am untrained or raw in the field.If you are wondering what field I'm talking about well that's for you guys to guess (FYI it's not related to my course mind you,still doing accounting).

There also some things besides the given field that I wish i could change, but then again it's just a fool's ranting saying that he's regretting what he has done. So instead of crying over spilled milk I'd rather try and fix it as much as possible if not completely.Plus if you are wondering what the hell the picture is about it's just a metaphor of a warrior reflecting on his past and coming to grip with the thought that he is just a man, and that he does have some faults that he wishes that he could change.

That's all I can say, I hope those who are getting annoyed or upset due to my lack of capabilities to give me time to try and learn,adapt and soak up all the knowledge needed in it..for now all I can say is that I'm sorry and really wish that I could make up to those who are enduring bravely of my lack of skill.For now if possible I would like to learn from the basics before jumping into the thick of it and screw it all up.


"I am awake upon the end of my journey,the war is a hair's breath away;
I gaze upon the field for which the battle shall take place,so near the clutches of death.
And yet shall it all end, neither do I know;
For my thoughts are as clouded as the mist,at most shallow.

The past haunts me, for there are things that I wish I could change;
But atlas it is foolish to think so,for it is neigh impossible to erase.
The bloodstains can be cleansed,but never shall it be forgotten;
my sword is heavy,it has become a burden.

Yet I shall not regret it, for it is who I am;
I will hope for the future,bright as the most precious gem.
For then I can learn from the past, to conceive a better fate;
Only then can I truly change,before it is too late."

Striferius L. Dalamante

Apologies,Festivities and in Serious Need of Understanding

First of I want to start off with apologizing to one of my buds (you know who you are) for my outburst during a previous post which I have now deleted, I was being a douche and had anger management/depression issues at the time.Hopefully you'll get the memo and I hope we won't have bad blood between us,can't wait till you rejoin us here even though you are switching courses.

Second I would like to wish a belated Happy Chinese New Year (Gong Xi Fa Cai!) to all,hope you guys enjoyed your holidays and good luck in whatever lays ahead for you.Cheers mates ! :)

Finally I would also like to apologize to someone special to me for being blur,a douchebag/scumbag,idiot,moronic and least but not least a stuuupidd fool...apparently I am still in need of severe understanding in relationships,fashion,dialogue and in general women. I really really hope that I can focus on her more soon.I am feeling veeery guilty of my severe lackness in this field and clearly it shows whenever she's upset, all I can say for now is that I'm sorry and that I'll make it up to you...this I swear.

Well that's about it for now,laters all

Ohh Busy Times

I know that I haven't updated for a month, been busy with the new semester with multiple projects and ASSignments to be done.On the plus side, I get the hang out more with the person I like and that is enough reason for me to give it an extra effort and endure the stress or/ and burden should any be shoved towards me :)

Anyhow a belated shout out to my 3rd bro for his 31st birthday, hope you had an epic bash.That's all for now, laters.